andrew and esther *
Monday, December 25, 2006 <3 you lied
trust has to be earned
you start from ZERO
maybe never at all
it's hard to sort my feelings out now
you should know why christmas ended up this way
neveralone ;4:43 PM
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Saturday, December 23, 2006 <3 1st christmas!
hey! it's been a long tym!
hmmm its the eve of eve of christmas today
BEAMS!
really love the christmas shopping, although it can get a tad mad
haha
anyway, there's been loads of ups and downs ever since dear's Alevels ended
times when it seemed if it was gonna be it
yet after it all, i really love Andrew so
this wonderful feeling inside
to know that i'm his. to watch him smile, to hold his hands
and to share moments with him
nth can describe tht feeling, hw lucky i feel
i want to cherish such moments before they're gone
as in, when he goes for NS and i haf my Alevels.
and i'm sorry for being really difficult at times
and being one-sided
Christmas is a time for giving thanks
to remember
to cherish
and of course, about the Jesus i love (:
its nearly been a year now
like we said, we cant imagine its been so long alr
yet, one year is still quite short
yea, if you get what i mean . haha
just wanna say a big THANK YOU to the one i love, Andrew
for the sacrifices he made
for being there
and being the wonderful supportive person
who hears me out
who understands
who makes me smile
makes me feel all warm and fuzzy inside besides my family
and a long list that i cannot finish typing!
I LOVE YOU and Merry Christmas! =)
neveralone ;11:46 PM
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Wednesday, December 13, 2006 <3 back finally...
ahhh after a LONG LONG period of absence ever since b4 my As, i'm FINALLY back!! well let's see... so much so much has happened ever since... throughout my As, esther's been a realli realli great help to mi... giving mi so so much encouragement n support through those days... those 3 weeks passed so quickly i barely had a good glimpse of wat happened around mi!
well so STRAIGHT after my As, esther n i went to town fer a nice dinner... n also to e swimming club e following day n realli spent a relaxing day tgt... i will cherish those moments together all my life realli... ahhh those times... i wonder when will we ever hav tt kinda time again... seriously after e As, suddenly felt tt schooling daes r so much more carefree n all... n so much more time to spend wif esther... those break times, after school, b4 band, mornings, gg home tgt, gg school tgt... ahhh makes mi wanna cry when i think bout those times... how nostalgic... well i hafta face the fact that they will remain onli as memories that may nv be revived again =((
well those r oso e times i'll nv forget my entire life; e happy, e sad, e ups n downs, laughter n tears... they mean so much to me, EVERY moment of it...
well after e As r over i embarked on another personal project - a solo recital... in a matter of 2 weeks, i organised everything from scratch, looking for musicians, music, booking hall, rehearsals... not an easy task indeed... e onli thing i feel bad about... is tt i kinda neglected esther within these 2 weeks... tho i tried my best to make it up to her, i think it still ain't enuff... well now tt it's over, i realli wanna spend more time wif her b4 gg into army... n guess wat, tmr's our 11th month!!! haha one month to anniversary!!! how exciting eh??? well but she's in NUS pharmacy camp till fri... think tt's more impt =) i mean, it's a rare opportunity n she should grab it... i believe it's worth it vs to stay cos of our monthly commemoration thing... yeap haha
well so now she's in camp n i'm here alone... still can talk on e phone tho... absence makes e heart fonder doesn't it???
throughout e past 2 weeks preparing fer my recital... there has been much ups n downs, lotsa good times n bad times... n i really wanna say sorry and thank you to esther... sorry for the negligence over e past 2 weeks, i noe wadeva i do will nv make up fer e loss time... n thank you fer all e understanding, e tolerance, e continual encouragement throughout this prep even tho i've neglected you darling... n most importantly, i love u =)
<3 andrew
neveralone ;5:30 PM
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